My dear fans:
I see that we have some discussion going on in the Fan Forum and it is about my breasts or "tits" - however you want to call them.
First of all, I would like to reply to some opinions which have appeared a few times in there; to paraphrase: "Why did I change my breasts
if my natural ones were so beautiful" and "Now I have them too big and too fake"
I altered the profile of my own breasts by constantly trying to change my body shape as part of a very hard exercise regime.
Why did I do this to myself? Because there was always some man, an agent or photographer, who criticized something about my look - my hips
being too big or my breasts being too big and hanging or some such other nonsense - and because of a lack of self confidence I felt very badly
affected by their comments.
Now I understand that those guys did that, just because they did not have enough confidence themselves and so they needed to criticize me to
exert an authority and show some kind of controlling power so that they could judge me. There was nobody who explained to me that I am good enough
just the way that I am and to give a genuine compliment to say that they find all of me beautiful.
So, I was exercising far too hard because I wanted to change the way I looked completely. I was in the gym every day for a few hours with a
crazy trainer who was one of those guys who wanted me to change my appearance. He fed me all kinds of pills to make that change quicker.
After a while, under this terrible strain my body revolted, and I was very sick for a few months. Then, to compound that misery, my heart
was broken when I ended a mistaken relationship with one man. I stopped eating. I became dangerously underweight and along with the rest of my
body, lost weight in my breasts completely. As a model I did not want to show myself anymore in such a state, but I needed to earn a living.
It was then that I decided to try implants.